There was this Goat: to Understand and Live with Mrs. Konile

1. When I read Mrs. Konile’s testimony before TRC, it reminded me of Cassandra in Aeschylus’s Agamemnon, who prophesies her and Agamemnon’s death in a language full of broken flashes and metaphors to an extent that the chorus she is addressing don’t understand what she means. Surely, the tragedian Aeschylus is a genius of using such techniques to increase the intensity and pathos of his play. But I think his genius did not come from nothing and it is not unlikely that Aeschylus had met people in his society who talked in a way similar to Cassandra does. And neither Cassandra nor Konile is a psychopath, though both were in a very sad and tragic situation when they were narrating. The moral of this comparison is that it is definitely not typical of African blacks to relate a story in a, seemingly, incoherent and incomprehensible way—Ancient Greeks did this as well! Only after we lift such prejudice based on culture and race, does real understanding begin. Here I empathize with the reasoning on pages 98-99 of the book:

“We often assume that a story by someone who looks or speaks like ourselves will be easier to understand than a story by someone from a completely different culture…I suggest that history holds only a small part of “salvation”, and that culture on its own, too, does not imply understanding. We need to find other ways to examine the truth of testimonies. What ways could they be? Given our history, any attempt to analyze the past or the present by anybody who values intercultural understanding, must assume that a subject from another culture is both familiar and strange. More significantly, though, I want to argue that even subjects from our own cultural group are both familiar and strange.”

 

2. The effort of the authors (Antjie, Nosisi, and Kopano) is basically to understand the truth and coherence of Mrs. Konile’s testimony in the context of her socio-cultural background and personal life condition, taking into account interpretation issues, an effort echoing what the German philosopher Gadamer said in his Truth and Method­, that is, understanding a text is very much about understanding it in such a way that it can be true.

Of course, understanding is not interpreting arbitrarily or over-interpreting which would be misunderstanding. I believe it is the fear of misunderstanding that finally motivated the authors to go for a face-to-face interview with Mrs. Konile. But when can we say that we have properly understood Konile’s testimony and her self? Is it her own inner thoughts or her own clarifying remarks that have the final say? Probably not, for even Mrs. Konile herself was in an active and continuous process of interpreting and living with her miserable self and in this sense might not be closer to herself than the authors.

I think understanding another’s narration and self is not so much interpreting his or her inner thoughts as an act of living with him or her, together. The authors are well aware of this in the end:

“Our interaction made us calibrate our lives towards each other-not to become one another, but to enhance our awareness of our living-together-ness with her.” (page 207)

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Paradox in There was this Goat

After reading a few pages of this text, I thought the authors must have titled the book “There Was This Goat” because of the phrase’s randomness. I thought it indicated the unknowability of Mrs. Konile’s story. On page 47, however, the goat passage is described as the “key” that “unlocks” the mystery of understanding her testimony. And yet, by the end of the book, it becomes clear that Mrs. Konile’s story can never really be “unlocked.” The researchers demonstrate that Mrs. Konile’s narrative is not incomprehensible because it is senseless and meaningless – not the rants of a crazy woman– but because it reflects the complexity of her culture and her self. I mention the key and lock metaphor to draw attention to the (functional and creative) paradoxical nature of this book. The fact that the researchers even seek a “key” to “unlock” the mystery demonstrates the epistemological violence built into the western framework of evaluation and investigation. The attempt to “know” the “Other” is also an attempt to shape and fit the “Other” into a comprehensible framework. There was this Goat begins with a seemingly chaotic and unintelligible testimony. We are lured in when the researchers suggest they have an explanation for it. Ultimately, the researchers do decipher many mysteries of the story. They do not, however, “unlock” a truth or arrive at a place of certainty or closure. They end up feeling “unmoored” and appreciating that “understanding is obscenity” (172). There are hints that suggest this paradoxical language is intentional: 
”This did, indeed, unlock most of what we were grappling with, but at the same time it opened up new incomprehensibles” (121). In this book, there is also a paradoxical sense of progress. For instance, the researchers note that it is problematic to use western intellectual models to understand the lived experiences of non-westerners. Nevertheless, they draw on Douglas to equate drinking urine with embodying poverty and marginality. Later Mrs. Konile contradicts this by describing urine as clean and nourishing. This shows that Douglas’s theory could not capture her actual lived experience in context. But then on page 169, the researchers say that the “rock incident” was “no metaphor” but the “geology of poverty speaking.” The rock incident is tied to the urine incident. The researchers came to understand “the distance between picking up coal and where water for drinking could be found.” (169). Poverty therefore explains why urine is an acceptable form of nourishment in this situation. If the researchers conclude “urine means poverty” in this story, they erase and disregard Mrs. Konile’s description of her own perception & experience. If they ignore the fact that “urine means poverty” in this story they deny that Mrs. Konile is disadvantaged and fail to acknowledge their own relative position of privilege. In order to avoid ethnocentrism and passive cultural relativity at the same time, they need to depict Mrs. Konile’s story as paradoxical.

Throughout the course we’ve encountered evidence that suggests the self is not static or fixed but exists in a state of becoming. In order to fully understand Mrs. Konile’s testimony, we would have to understand Mrs. Konile as a person (her self), which is not possible. The researchers recognize their desire and responsibility to know the “Other” but also recognize that the “Other” can never really be “known.” On page 170, they articulate their triumph as both full of meaning and ambiguity: “talking to her made us feel that it was possible not to be her, but to be fully towards her.” I love this line! And I love this book. It admirably explores the vulnerability of the self-reflexive/critical researcher, the complexity of the “Other” & the fragility of transcultural communication.

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The social self and the political self

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There was this Goat

This book emphasizes what I believe to be an immeasurably important aspect of the self, the mind and psychology, which is context. To what extent the environment shapes us is still argued and attempts are made everyday to understand the impact that various factors of our lives have on who we are and what we become. It is understood however, that the people and things around us undoubtedly play a role in who, what and why we are what we are. Books like these, intricate studies of cultures we see as foreign, give insight to how minds are shaped by customs, beliefs and socioeconomic status. Through the authors’ journey to better understand a single individual, the reader is brought to understand how something as innocent as translation can alter how we perceive a world foreign to our own. When the original documents of the trial are taken into deeper consideration however, the reader is able to witness how much more than language shaped what we, and others think of Mrs Konile and ultimately how an incorrect impression was made.

What is so beautiful about this book is the feeling of connectedness to Mrs. Konile and how that connection is established. I believe that this was achieved by explaining the context of Mrs. Koniles life. Context is so much more than environment or people but also that which we own, what is given to use, that which we want, the years we live, the historical context of those years and much more. Context is truly unlimited, explaining the difficulty in its measure. This book allows the reader to deeply understand and feel for Mrs. Konile on many levels, giving us context of her story, her past and her present, all amplified as we struggle with the authors to find meaning in her statements. As the authors break her statements into pieces, both the translated and original documents, we get to join them in the process of knowing Mrs. Konile through her own contextual lens. As differences between her life and ours are brought to the surface and the meaning that was lost in translation, we appreciate her more and more, eventually we feel as though we know her and I for one, am glad for it.

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There was this goat

For me, this was the best book I have read all semester. It was particularly poignant because I have two “daughters” in Nairobi Kenya who refer to my wife and myself as “mum and dad”, and through this book I seem to have gathered a better understanding of the cultural implications of this relationship which has grown over the last 8 years or so. Besides educating them, I also support the family in numerous ways. I am as the son was to Notrowse Nobomvu Konile . I also have come to a fuller understanding of the need for caring relationships and a shack of your own if you are a single woman trying to survive when you live day to day…For example I was ask for money so they as a family they could go and visit their cousin Bibiana and her siblings and a grandmother for Easter ( both parents died of AIDS and the cousins live in the bush with the ailing grandmother and her siblings…of course one of the reasons for going is so they can take food to them since they are going through the “hunger time”; there small hand tilled crop of maze failed because of the drought. The last few years have been a difficult time for subsistence farmers in Kenya.
This is supposed to be about a psych course. So back to topic. Two more things particularly nstood for me.
Pg 202. The South African word, Ubuntu, is not, according to the book captured in the phrase, “I am because you are.” However it seems to me that the phrase, “I am because you are,” does capture Liebermann’s whole thesis about our brains being formed for social interaction without having to resort to any biology or neurology. Just as it seems to capture the “I-thou” relationship describe in Martin Buber’s book, “I Thou”, or even Coe’s work that we read earlier this semester. One primitive, primeval phrased seems to wrap up for me the interdependence of homo sapiens living and forming each other, usually kicking and screaming, toward a cooperative living organism. Which regretfully is still generations away; if our species manages to survive its self-destruction tendencies. We could use a little of the humility implied in the word Ubuntu. “The African kind of connectedness is much more open than the community sense of other cultures.” Pg 202. “It opens up all the time, it broadens. First we take care of the person next to us, then it opens up to the family, you share, then it grows to the community. Whatever we do we do not do it alone. The rituals are not for the family alone, we have to consult the clan, then it grows, so it spreads. When the ritual takes place anybody can come, if there is somebody who is foreign he is also welcome.” The shame and sadness for me is that many American citizens cannot extend this idea to those who come to this country out of economic necessity; as if most of our own ancestors came for other than the unlimited exploitation of its natural resources, and in the process were far more destructive to the native population.
The second thing that struck me has to do with my research paper proposal. Particularly pg. 54 thru pg. 58, of There Was a Goat. This book seems to say that, for many Africans, there exist links between our limited biological life and another world where the ancestors exist. According to many of the authors we have been reading (Anonio Damasio’s work, and even Liebermann’s work) such ‘links’ are the sole product of an individual’s biological brain evolved through the process of Darwinian evolution. Put another way, many human minds are evolved in such a way that a biological brain can create a mind that is capable of believing in the duality of a self that survives the death of the biological brain that creates it. For example, 54., “These rituals are a way of maintaining a bond between people and their ancestors. Some families slaughter a goat when a child is introduced to the ancestors, while other families use a sheep.” From a physiological point of view there must be some sense of the ancestors surviving death as an intact entity for the child to be introduced too. That belief must come from our biological created brains according to neurologists. For my argument it’s not important that we personally believe in the idea or not that such entities exist; but merely that we accept that other human minds, back through our biological evolution, have or still believe it is true for them. The rituals, myths, or communities that support these beliefs are also not relevant, unless you yourself believe in some kind of quid pro quo, regarding your sense of life affirmation after the death of your own biological brain at some future date. How does a solely biological evolved brain, which creates mind, consciousness and self, give credence to a duality beyond the realities of our scientifically measurable physical world which allows some people to believe what they are celebrating at Easter or Passover?
I particularly like the following passage on pg 58, in regard to the otherness of African beliefs talked about though out the book.
“Connection between worlds
The dream of the goat was a connection to the ancestral world. The goat and the dream were messengers from the other world. Dreaming of a goat, Mrs Konile was suggesting, was like receiving a letter from the ancestors that something was amiss.
The dream of the goat also meant that the ancestors were not too far away- they were not far from her mind, nor from her lived reality. Any contact with the ancestors was not only psychological but also cultural, spiritual and given the history of South Africa, political. The dream of the goat connected Mrs Konile to herself, her culture and her Gods. In culture and spiritual term, then, the dream meant that her ancestors were communicating to her that they were still around, irrespective of the nature of the news they were about to bring to her door. What was much more important was that she was reminded that she was connected to a wider world of her people, and to other worlds.” Un like so many Neo Darwinist, Mrs Konile need to believe she was connected to the another world in order to survive in this one. I wonder what part of her brain did or did not neurally fire when she was believing in the other world?

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Discussion Questions: There was this Goat

First of all, I could not help but compare the book with my own experience as a former journalist and how the mundane job of transcribing and translating could, in this book, become the central task out of which an entire project developed. The seemingly simple goal of deciphering the testimony of a victim’s mother grew into an ambitious project spanning multiple academic disciplines. Topics in history, psychology, justice, culture, philosophy all intersect at one point in South Africa’s history known as the Gugulethu Seven incident. There was this Goat answers many questions addressing the human psyche in relation to that incident but in the process it also asks a host of new ones. Below are a few questions we may want to discuss in class:

  1. Human rights abuses such as kidnapping, execution, torture occur to individuals. Why does the reconciliation between a group of victims and their abusers lead to a sense of national reconciliation even if not all victims were given the same chance? Where does this sense come from?
  2. Is national reconciliation universally applicable across world? Why? What is the common thread that makes it so universal?
  3. How does the idea of national reconciliation relates with Lieberman’s thesis that the brain is wired to connect? How does forgiveness play a role in the evolutionary standpoint of ensuring group living?
  4. How would we (as an individual) have testified had it been our son who was killed? In noticing the difference between Mrs Konile’s testimony and ours, what does this gap tell us about truth when the cultural context differ?
  5. Given the multitude of themes addressed in this book, what would be its primary message?
  6. On page 58 in the last paragraph, Kopano remarks how neo-liberal, capitalist, Western psychology violently interrupts African indigenous psyches. He goes on to explain how African students appear terribly confused upon entering universities where they must uproot their understanding of the nature of social relations and about themselves. So is there no universal definition of the Self? If not, then what do we make of disciplines such as psychology which must assume some sort of universal standard?
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Prompt 2

(First, I am sorry to be late and to only be posting in response to prompts 2 and 3.) My project is a video exploration my own selfhood vis-a-vis my body, my mental illness, my sexuality. Using the frame of Viegener’s lists, I will explore the phenomenology of embodiment using the tools of performance as well as textual research. I will create a video in 25 segments that focuses on my relationship to my physical body, depression, anxiety, sex, menstruation. Through this examination of lived embodiment, I will reckon with my feelings of alienation, rationality, shame, pure joy, pride, physical pain, jealousy, sexiness. Through the process of making a video, I will identify what my own selfhood means and how it functions. I will show that the self is multiplicitous, out of reach, fractured, and yet cohesive. I see my video as a challenge to hegemonic patriarchy in that I will center and explore my body in an uncommon way. My sources and references include visual and performing artists (some nsfw; all links open in a new tab) Abramovic, Ann Liv YoungSchneemann, Pinar Yolacan, Emin, Acconci, and theorists Merleau-Ponty, Butler, Puar, Husserl, Alexander. 

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Prompt 3

I don’t know if I have missed any previous posts, but it doesn’t appear that there are any projects that resemble mine…I hope that the project is within the scope of the course. With this, I must bid you all goodnight, the rats are to be injected now. Have a great night!

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Prompt 2: Project: Addiction and the Self

My project involves how addictive behaviors are developed. I have worked in neuropharmacology for a while and there are a few schools of thought that exist. My collaborator and I look at how the presence of a drug in an adolescent brain triggers organizational changes which can lead to cognitive deficits. We had the ‘pleasure’ of meeting Dr. Carl Hart, a Columbia U neuroscientist and author of the book “High Price”. He categorically dismissed all of our research, he isn’t a fan of animal studies. I would like to hate his guts for this…BUT, some of his hypotheses for how addictions develop are compelling. He is highly controversial. If you have read his studies, or visited his website, you will understand.

We know that rats perform better cognitively when placed in enriched environments. Humans fail to thrive when deprived of interaction. So may these factors play a role in how addiction comes about? He gives examples of why drug addiction is endemic in impoverished areas, while those with more ‘enriched’ lives, if you will, will have different experiences (how some may be able to use drugs socially).

So, for my project, I wanted to investigate how experiences mold the self, development of relationships, support systems, and how this may influence your relationship with drugs. I plan to compare/contrast this with “Memoirs of an Addicted Brain” by another neuroscientist, Marc Lewis, and other texts which look at addiction through the lens of both science and personal experience (you would be surprised how many of these accounts exist…I’m beginning to think my collaborator and I are the only scientists who haven’t tried hard drugs…we are squares).

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Prompt #3: Research overlaps

It looks like my topic (practice elevator pitch: “The excluded self and the anti-narrative impulse in the gay memoir”? Needs work) has some overlap with both Berni’s (identification/empathy between the reader’s self and the selves of fictional characters) and Mari’s (narrative psychology). So, I’ve noted Susanne Keen’s Empathy and the Novel, Blakey Vermeule’s Why Do We Care About Literary Characters?, and Lisa Zunshine’s Why We Read Fiction as possible sources with applications that might extend from fiction into memoir, and Jerome Bruner and Janos Lazlo as sources that might be good to look at on general principle. If I run across something else that might be useful to you two, I’ll post it here.

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